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Tuesday, May 30, 2006
wah.. FREAKING DRAMABOX-SICK!! sent some of the dramabox songs to chuwen and xuezhen and we just went all time high and sad. i miss the dramabox attachment last yr so much. with ngchuchu, yeoxuexue, jiayi myra kemin. the people from dramabox evelyn, jed, tommy, josephine, nicole and not to forget YANG JUN WEI -winks at someone- the times at dramabox, our milos(esp xue), laksa, sausages, mrt, laughing at someone singing the hokkien song, sitting behind the blue lorry, carrying daojus to places far away from the lorry, setting up the place, doing up the clothes rack with chu and xue, doing lights and mic, chatting and crapping in the rehearsing space in dramabox. many many more. just one song can bring back so many memories. i love that experience, really did (: science centre was thrilling today. went out with june liyi and charmaine after that. shall keep our experience a secret! :D ah, full of emotions today. and i bought something i'd been looking for so long! Monday, May 29, 2006 been tired the whole day; went to school at 8 and had eng lesson to find that i had wasted my morning away. cos in the end it couldn reach my turn, i have to wait till sch reopens -_-" between 10 and 1:15 i had nothing to do so rachel june and me decided to go yiochukang and bowl! :DD we prepaid for one game and woosh went to play. i was sosurprised by myself today?? haha. after that we were attracted by the pool table so woosh again we paid to play. wahaha. we are so zai right! june learns fast! not bad not bad (: went back to sch, waited for quite long before we were off to jiayi house to do voice recording and anges' make up. i kept falling asleep no matter how uncomfortable a position i was in, and messed up part of the recording as a result ): sorry xiu! and for anges, i like slept through half while just sitting cross legged on the floor! alright ): im useless. rushed home to bathe and went to aunts house for dinner. and after dinner haha, plop onto sofa and fell asleep right away! until when we were supposed to go home, i got into the car and slept. shit so pig. ugh. keep getting like the same irritating chain mails everyday?? those kind of if-you-dont-pass-on-you'll-die-and-if-you-pass-it-on-ur-crush-will-fall-in-love-with-you that kind of chain letters! like literally. i see until want to faint already. cant even bother to delete. accumulating. my cousin went over to my aunts house to live already. i bet she misses my hamsters. haha. i guess i'll miss her? i dunno how to go science centre :s am i genuinely happy today? Sunday, May 28, 2006 UGH. IM SO SICK OF EVERYTHING. ESPECIALLY MYSELF. i cant wait for everything to be over. but do i really want it to? Friday, May 26, 2006 i love three pee (: from the bottom of my heart. not many ppl went today.. but i really want to thank these ppl for making my day. shall refer to namelist! cecilia zhangwei shuling sally angeline cheryl fenglin deborah mengtian keatying june rachel ziqin liyi sarah jiahang wangkuo peiyi charmaine ziqin and the china scholars left early though ): we all bore out hearts out, esp peiyi and sally. they shared their experiences as scholars, and we were all talking abt how the china scholars in our class were mistreated. sigh.. its okay. we will really cherish them from today onwards. they really rock. sally and peiyi, cheer up. we promise you that you two wont feel lonely with purity around (: you all rock. wah, abit suay almost had to dance pole dance cos i was the last one left for truth or dare. in the end i managed to get away by doing something which made all of them laugh (: deborah's house is nice; i like husky the dog! its so tame and nice (: parents meeting and phototaking ju stuff in the earlier part of the day. forget the first issue. had some fun shooting the photos for our chinese scene (: shushien looks ghostly in her makeup. good model for yeyou. but too bad she herself scared :/ my irritating cousin is coming to stay again. ahhhh. another 20 days of torture and lack of sleep ): anyway want to leave a message for mummy here, cos i feel like im disturbing you nowadays. dont know if u'll see it but yepps (: i dont know what will happen to you in this holidays cos i think we wont be seeing much of each other and you wont tell me anyway. just wish that you'll take care of yourself, and regardless of any bad things happening, hang on and stay strong. you will emerge as a butterfly when everything is over. i have faith in you; your other friends too. dont let us down when you know you have the ability to do it. and remember, you are positive (: arent you? jiayou, good luck, and im always here if you ever need me. but i doubt. schools finally over. nothing much to say. got kinda angry during paiju today. shouted but the ppl thought i was just joking. hurr. went to the hwa chong boarding school! wah, many st nicks ppl were there and the place was GRAND? i love the environment! i seriously want to move there cos the atmosphere is terrific. its unexplanable... but it feels really like a home, a home to many different individuals. reached at 6++ and ate; the buffet was nice. ziqin was there since 4, and she started eating. when we reached, she was still eating! tsk. after eating we went up to their rooms, wahh they all live in the same hall. cool! went to peiyi, sally, zhenqin/ivy, shushien/wenyi's room. very very cool. there were so many huahui ppl down there la. like three quarter of lishihui was down there, plus a few huiyuans and many scholars who are in huahui themselves (: saw sinyee wendy olivia diana.. and more. toured around after 8 (my bag weighs 7kg! i measured when i came home) and went everywhere with peiyi charmaine and mengtian. had alot of fun. peiyi was so enthu in showing us to the the place, she was excited herself. went out of the hostel to walk walk and we went to the swimming pool. too bad the pool was locked. took silly pictures (: left at around ten, took 156 home with kemin and chuyan. i had 39 stops to take! but when kemin left me and chuyan were like chatting nonstop about stuff, haha. i'd never talked to her before today! (: nice friend found. chatterboxes. i lost the thing i wanted to give. i hope i find it back soon. or rather at the same time, i hope it never comes back. @&#^)@#*#*)%^#*$adlvjknrsoubvksdnv;ldksnv;soernglk;dxnvlskd sorry. venting. rewatching stairway to heaven. dont think i have time to finish it actually. piling homework. wonder when i'll actually go and do. ugh. no mood. super neutral tonight. i guess i can control my feelings better now. thats good. of course! Thursday, May 25, 2006
some parts are true... haha. some are not!! Wednesday, May 24, 2006
i dunno how to show her? heh. haiis. dont care. more impt things than that. currently stuck to an old song. jiekou by jaychou. wendys gonna be so proud of me, haha. found a total new meaning in it. nice song. ru guo yao zou qing ni ji de wo. ru guo nan guo qing ni wang le wo. no mood to blog nowadays. this is so stilted. ugh. Tuesday, May 23, 2006 i guess u'll never know. no. i guess, you dont care. nothing in my mind except math test now. and the ppr tomorrow. will be back i guess. Monday, May 22, 2006 - :| - :/ - :( - :) - sigh. only god knows what im talking about (: xuez: i want i want! after one rehearsal or smth, we go compass point chill out want? i did nothing but see you _. i heard nothing but listened _. i didnt have anything to do. _____. gone with the wind. woosh. Sunday, May 21, 2006 typed a post and at first wanted to press something, i pressed refresh. everything gone. anyway... yeoxuexue! obviously i went to update myself at ur blog. you know i would. i.. dont know what to say. life is unpredictable. sigh.. i know things can never go back to how it was at first? it is really sad. it is sad to know.. we once cherished one another. but now we are walking two separate paths. my fault, i insist. i cant control; but it hurts. even myself. as i see you around, all i can think is, thats someone that i'd lost and may never come back. i hope we'll have time to talk again, soon. yes? (: Saturday, May 20, 2006 went to xuezhens blog and i miss that girl damn alot? she told me she changed blog last time but she didnt give me the add -_-" i miss the times last year, when we had all our recesses tog, the times when i wait for her outside grace(as mentioned by pikachoo) the times we go home together and the times when we gossip and talk about everything under the sun, about our innermost feelings. until i have to become busy and give up everything. there's this thing she posted in her blog which i have the exact sentiments. as i always said, drama is something that is always misunderstood. people know that all the sports girls put in a lot of effort and spend a lot of time training. but they all dunno that we,huahui also put in a lot of time and effort each year when planning our qihang. its not easy for us too. especially when our efforts and time are not seen and regconised by others. props ppl doing props, promo ppl think of posters, tech ppl think of lighting, front stage ppl go for pai ju the process is very tedious and tiring for us too. esp for those who are really into it. the time we put in are usually not seen by others, but that does not mean we did not put in any. i often wish for the school and many others to be more understanding and supportive. if you think LD spend a lot of effort and time den please bear in mind, we also spend an equal amt of effort and time. its unfair to think that ours is a more relaxing job because it is not. we are both drama groups be it english or chinese and everything is the same for both group so it will be really unfair if you can appreciate LD's hard work but not ours. its unfair. yeahh.. its really true. theres actually unfairness when people compare us with LD. we are still drama groups, although with very different working styles. they get all the support... we have to do everything ourselves. our standard may naturally be lower. but this year we're moving on, we're excelling. we're putting in all our best, as much as we did all those years. we hope you all will enjoy our show this year. and yeah xuezhen if ure here, this part is for you. we've drifted and its all my fault. i really missed you this four months, and i truly mean it. everytime i see you the memories of sec two rush back. xiaopin times, qihang times, recess times, compass point times... we may never get to go back to that. but i just want to say.. in times of need when you cant find anyone, im always here for you. i cherish our memories together. i hope you do too. i love you (: i know i have changed. perhaps you did too, and i was moving too far away to know. but i hope in days to come, we can spend more time together again, perhaps? i have stuff to tell you abt MKL.. those only you will understand. i really miss you, heck. anyway today.. woke up early cos my mum wanted me to have breakfast, gahhh. so early! not enough sleep :/ lishi meeting at macs was cancelled ): and so my mum decided to take me out later. but before that while studying chem mummy and i decided to go bowl! :D woohoo. i was a laughing stock. that silly girl just refused to bowl in the first place? she needed weiling's presence hahah. but when she reached we were both told to face the other way while she went ): crazy. and she topped us all? somewhat after one more game in silence (weird atmosphere) we went to play drums and got excited again. we were like childish ppl snatching and literally FIGHTING to pay for the game? weirdos. i had fun. i hope they did too (: went home and went out again. tired. went to explore and sit on sofas in courts hahaha. my family is weird. i tried to hint my mum on the flute. no use ): a night full of thoughts today. still cannot get something i heard today out of my mind. im so useless, hell. komban wa to the world. Friday, May 19, 2006 woke up at three in the morning cos of nosebleed, the first thing i though was "WHAT THE! DISTURB MY SLEEP!" okay that sounds AP heh. was super frustrated as i tried to make my way to the toilet. it didnt help when i suddenly notice the huge clown costume hanging on the outside of my cupboard and got a huge shock!(i totally forgot its existance) did our qihang video today with yunjie joanne and ziqin, had alot of fun haha! but we were late for cca ): sigh. anyway i guess paiju is efficient (: did hotseating and after that i stole serene to pai her pms. got the crew to help! hui er is so cute, she cant stop laughing throughout. but nvm, at least in the end she didnt anymore! celebrated ziqin and estis bday. and discussed huahui stuff until 7:45. zhenqin looked quite tired today. haiis. :x went to the library after dinner. like mummy said, study session become laughing session, i was laughing at what she was doing and she was laughing at how i laugh. VERY FUNNY MEH! i still think her TELEBUBBIES funnier (: drew a pikachu for pikachoo! :D we both agree its cute! was going all crazy in the playground. and luiza was so funny in the phone! shes damn cute la, pikachoo! mummy was threatening me -gives death look- ran a few rounds -.- that girl thinks im able to catch up with her? crazy. talking to danfong and she just make me so sad? we cried!! and abit we were both listening to gei ni de ge -big sad smile- i will miss the grey badge. i really will, and alot alot. we are only left with 29 days to work together... as reminded by danfong. i promise this yr xubie to be a really meaningful one. yes. shall leave everything i want to say to xubie then (: i love huahui, so much. Thursday, May 18, 2006 someone is irritating me ): hurrrrr grits teeth. couldn remember anything that happened today in school.. just that i remember we were having mock spa test for physics and SALLY WAS HYPNOTISED BY THE PENDULUM! hahaha :D i promised to blog about it so here i am. she damn cute la haha! wahlao very very irritated gosh. mood gone. to think i could go to sleep happily tonight ): p.s. i think pikachoo's damn cute! :D Wednesday, May 17, 2006 huahui fundraised today. we sold GINGERBREAD MEN, chocolate tarts and doughnuts (: our gbm sold really well! :D esp in the primary section. was busy feeling sad for the upper sec cos by that time we only have 10+ gbms left! missed out (: felt damn shiok to leave class at 9 for huahui! and was so satisfied when by the end of all the recesses we only had around 14 doughnuts left. didnt earn much profit but we did our best! yay lishis rock (: as well as sheila honghwee kally jingying! and everyone who bought from us thanks (: you all contributed to our QIHANG! was falling asleep in mrs sherwood's lesson. she was nice not to say my name while pointing out the sleeping matter -_-" math extra lesson kinda became contact time between the locals and ms choo. got to know more abt the china scholars. i guess some facts arent pretty, but like sally said, they really want to make friends with us. how can we ever advance if we reject them even before we see what they can actually be? besides, they are human too. they have their feelings, as acute as anyone else. we have no right to obstracize them. gotta remind myself to change my science centre date. haiis. mahfan. lishi meeting. discussed and yeah got a few things settled. i contributed coughs to the meeting -_- anyway im very excited about qihang! though ulu pandan sounds really ulu but its still a nice place (: went for study session. i realise i shouldn open my mouth. cos after i open my mouth to speak for five seconds i'll have to cough a few times ): was at the playground after that. OHMAN SO MALU LA THAT STUPID MUMMY MADE ME!! :x -takes chopper and chase- doing PMS and MIC scene tomorrow. JIAYOU serene and xiuqi yepps (: yall can do it. we only have one month from now. sense of urgency!! but anyway, dont be stressed by the runs or anything okay yanyuans. they're there to help you (: not kill you! and we wont eat you up :D ah, gotta do my stuff already. two letters to write! Tuesday, May 16, 2006 im seriously, seriously, seriously stuck to my blog song. i think it can shoot up to rating five star in one night on my wmp list (: im so frustrated with myself. i really really did finish AM12 on friday, when it is due monday(yesterday). however because of come errors of judgement i didnt hand it in. so i had to hand in today and miss choo must have thought i was late again. I REALLY FINISHED IT EARLY ): okay. anyway i didnt hand in my AM11 -_-" liyi hopes i have cough everyday cos she says im usually too noisy. OKAY LORH! NO ONE SING WITH YOU ALREADY! mummy and pikachoo both didnt come to school today! poor things GET WELL SOON YOU BOTH!! dont get angry over matters that are not worth it yeah (: wanted to do work at the library. realised im bad at math? i cant freaking do AM11 -big sad smile- mummy looked sick and she insists shes not. oh she was so freaked out by a small lizard on the ceiling. while she was praying it doesn drop, i was cursing it to drop ((: wahahha. HUAHUI IS FUNDRAISING FOR QIHANG TOMORROW! PLEASE COME TO SUPPORT! gingerbreadman: $1.00 doughnuts: $1.00 chocolate tarts: $1.50 speaking of qihang, the full dress run today was exhilarating. every paiju is fresh, every run is a new play all over again. the yanyuans were very stressed and i didnt know what to do ): but everyone jiayou!! im kinda proud of shaorou (: all the way TING KAN BIE SHUO! qihangs in a month and two days! do yall feel the qihang spirit yet? (: my ulcer hurts, alot alot! its huge. was showing many of my ju ppl, so AA right. somehow can i break the record of having the biggest ulcer ppl has seen? alright nevermind, im a weirdo anyway. oh and im positive it will grow bigger. AHHHH cries. Monday, May 15, 2006 changed my blog song. this kinda fits my mood nowadays. got the link from esther two years ago, hope i wont get killed using it cos she apparently took down her gbk i dunno how to ask :D i miss the green badge, heck. what to do now? study lorh. Sunday, May 14, 2006 i look at that object on my table and ask myself if it really should be there. oh forget it. ever seen the advert of strepsils that show the smoothing of the gear thing? it doesn work ): nearly choke on strepsils yesterday night when my brother forced me to sleep(cos he wanted the computer). was just eating the sweet and it almost went into the throat. wah! i suddenly sat up and my brother was so shocked. hahaha. pokemon was the only thing that cheered me up today. i woke up and played pokemon. I SWEAR I DIDNT THINK I COULD MAKE IT but i did hahahahahh! i won the pokemon league just with typhlosion gyarados and jinx :DD yayee. yepps and went to mummy's house to watch POKEMON!! sorry had to make you restart when u were abt to finish ): the girl just teared/cried haha while i was too engrossed in the show. and i dont have a heart of stone. i know how to control (: i was forced to drink water otherwise i couldn watch the show heh. had a good laugh watching AFV, the gymnastics one, haha! okay... ziqin just reminded me of this important homework! shit. shall scram. ciao. happy mothers day to all. liewkelvin is irritating me by asking me to talk crap. went to watch xiaopin finals today and hell half the time me and chuwen were fainting. there was only two out of the ten that we were so impressed we just clapped and cheered all the way. anyway couldn keep on watching so left right after everyone presented, forsaken jixing and just went for lunch. talked alot to chuwen and yeah, i miss her and the last two years, alot. glad to know that the sec ones love huahui. yes, huahui definitely has the spirit no other cca can possibly have (: my bro just snatched my comp for rough 15min while im left to stone. shiok la. and my internet just died on me. didnt get to sleep ): had to study. for a while two and a half hours!! ): went down for a walk though (: hahahaha laugh till mad and gosh, that snail path was just scary. mummy nearly stepped on one AGAIN and hoho we both had jelly legs after that. hmm funny topics :D green cow and blue dustbins wahahha. and then that girl go freak herself out. if i didnt walk her, she'd have died on the way home. my dear no one ah... tell me leh! the suspense dont work... and i really bet its nothing one lorh haha. yes ure joking (: i want a week free to go find all my old friends and pull back the drift. i miss them so much. when did i ever grow up so fast? just a zoom and im far ahead. i dont want to move on that fast, i want to stop and take a look around. things dont look good ahead, nothing to look forward to. friends dont seem like friends while i dont feel myself as well. at least.. i think so. hurry my internet quick come back i want to post. long live my internet. Friday, May 12, 2006 had paiju at shaorous house, where everyone thought the environment look like chalet or resort :D nicenice. in the aerobics room i think everyone was super enthu :D and shaorou kept giving us food to eat! while pai-ing she was already planning where to go for lunch. haha. so in the end we went from citylink all the way to marina square. some of us ate hans while some of us ate kfc :D didnt go play pool or bowl in the end ): tsk! ugh. Thursday, May 11, 2006 i enjoyed the scupture walk today. the china scholars were walking abit off track though. think they're too excited. haha. was with liyi the whole while, the poor girl sprained both her legs and got difficulty walking ): i hope she didnt do napfa today! had assembly and i slept through half of it. almost everyone sitting at the back was snoozing. hahahha! lazed around in class with a few of crazy classmates den went for paiju. not exactly pai cos most of the time we had evaluation. all the way till 7:30! i think it was useful. i shall be more daring to speak up next time! and BOOM when there is a need to (: went to the library and read my pokemon comic. gosh so so so nice (: according to mummys face i think i was pretty qianbian these few days. thank god she didnt mention much of ec today, bu ran ta zao jiu si le~ im so pokkai now! and... mothers day present? ugh. i look forward to hotseating tomorrow! and the mini runthrough. Wednesday, May 10, 2006 typed a long post and decided not to publish. dunno what happened today, everything just went past while im still in blur mood. emotions were at the extremes today. though the extremely happy part was absent. i dont know what to think. and like liyi, i dont know what to do. i got a concussed head today. wonder who's fault it is(yeah la my own fault). and yay im a nerd. nerd caused the cool chews to choke on snapple. nerds so rock man. we are hot and spicy (not the wannabes). alright. i almost dunno what im typing anymore. braindead. Tuesday, May 09, 2006 yeah right! xuemin! dont worry anymore (: i hope what i said will help? haha. miss choo was sad today and yeah, me sally deborah were so angry at these.... few people. BLEH. bu fang bian shuo nvm. and WOW! finally today... i cleared ALL my homework!! and i mean ALL :D:D:D my eng compre, task performance, maths commontest 4 and 5, and the ec worksheet! when i realised that i cleared i practically just stoned down there in relief. muscle ache!! mengxiao made me laugh today. usually she is quiet like a mouse. today in chem she suddenly went: mx: xiaowei, i think i must talk to you. xw: huh? orh okkay..? (blur diao) mx: cos im falling asleep. I LAUGHED OUT RIGHT AWAY!! shes so cute la! oh and she told me in china, to get A for the PE test, standing broad jump must jump 220+!!! faints!! then sit up must do 50+ also. heh -_-" cca was okay.. took a long time settling costumes. then... myra and jiayi abandoned me with the pms scene while they did ID and bulimic. haha okkay la not abandoned. just that i not very familiar :/ and anyway smth happened :x -shakes and grits teeth and gives tortured face- sorry sorry sorry!! study session was productive today! was so determined to do my work.. in the end at my last qn i found i didnt have graph paper(which later i realised i didn even bring it home). read abit of the pokemon comic. i still rmb every detail :D cos a few yrs ago i was reading and rereading my cousin's one :D i literally slept at the playground; someone wanted to just leave me there. ZAI HORH! and yeah my head is safe for the day (: good job mummy! hope tomorrow will be great (: harmony most welcome. conflicts and complains unappreciated. hope miss choo will be better tomorrow! Monday, May 08, 2006 what sort of a relaxing week is this ): it didnt start off very nicely ): ): haiis ): ): ): OKAY SCRATCH THAT. at least a consolation is i finally(and i mean FINALLY) got a gold for napfa in sec school! my 2.4 always D D D this yr finally C and yay (: everything improved except my dear standing broad ): nvm. shall not crap abt napfa. very long since i ever strived for something and achieved my target.. the feeling is great (: i dont think i will feel like that in near time to come though... sigh. i hope my mum doesn decide to clean my bed's lower bunk. cos thats where all the failed papers are hidden, :x Sunday, May 07, 2006 its a nice sunday (: slept till i naturally woke. its the best kind of sleep really (: slacked around for awhile before going library. was... QUITE productive provided that angeline didnt call me to talk abt class stuff, in which we kind of crapped for 40+mins before coming up with any constructive thoughts. hahaha. but that crazy girl makes me laugh :D home and to my brothers house to find out that his whole family wasnt at home. im just not fated to see xavier la! ): yay and went to mummy/baby's house! she cooked abalone maggi mee wahseh i feel damn bad la eat their ABALONE!! abit not ex only.. haha her brother and sister are so funny. anyway the food was nice, and i mean it! after dinner settled down to do work. was arguing with mummy abt ec and non-ec stuff and yeah it kind of became heated up between her and her sister. the whole time i was :x eh ^^" decided to leave and yeah. went into singing mood! MUMMY FINALLY SANG FOR ME and please she sings not bad yet keep saying she cannot sing -knocks- went crazy wahahah. nice day i guess (: no paiju tomorrow. I SHALL GO HELP DAOJU! yay. provided not much work. oh shit. tomorrow recess got sec3 lishi meeting. at the same time gotta go find ms choo with angeline. HOW? im so dead meat. im in hot soup. DIE LAAAA. -slaps myself- ugh. life sucks. like i need anyone to tell me that. thanks serene for cheering me up with that message (: it sure boosted my morale. though u wont see this lah. and i bet you didnt know i was not in a very good mood today. haha. got stuck at the bus stop and couldn cross over today because of the rain. what a nice start to my day, being late for half an hour to paiju. and yeah. my ezlink no money. so i heartstakingly paid 2:20 of fares today. lunched with serene outside macs, we had instant noodles -laughs- that is pretty much our regular saturday lunch menu. last time my saturday lunches spent with xiaopin, i always had mcspicy. now i always have instant noodles. shit im living so unhealthily. came home and slept 5 hours straight. woke up feeling guilty cos of all the work i have. didnt get to do, went out for dinner at eight plus(getting fat). went a few places den back. no time do homework liao lah T_T i must must must jiayou! Jang Nara - honjaseodo jarhaeyo honjaseodo jar norjyo bogo shipdago urgeona hajin anhjyo. neur hamke iddeon geu ddaedo hangsang nahonja jaejar georyeojjyo. geudaegyeoti johaseo naegadagaga geudae eoggaer birreojjyo. neur mari eob-deon geudaeneun gaggeum useojjyo. dareundoseur boneun geudae nunbichi buranhaejjiman mideojjyo. gomaweoyo. saranghandago marharsu ikke haejungeo.. idaeru dashi borsu obseodo hanado ijji anheuggeyo honjaseodo... cheoeumbuteo geuraejjyo. geudaemamsogen nugunga isseojjyo. armyeonseogo choheun nan gaggeum ureojjyo.mianhaeyo aju jamggarnijiman geudaer gajiryeo haeddeongeodarrajingeon hanado a-jjyo na saranghar bbuningeoryo. buseyo, honjaseodo jarhajyo. gidarimyeo saraganeungeo gwaenchanhayo... once again addicted to this song gosh the lyrics book abit small i keep missing the line im reading. blur already. and i realise with guilt.... something i havent returned somebody! shitshit. Friday, May 05, 2006 i wonder why im born as teyxiaowei to do stupid things. was looking at some letters i received when i was sec one and sec two. i see all the names on the letters, "xiaowei" "wei" and wonder if im really who this names refer to. i wonder if i live up to what they think i am. and as for many other ppl's opinion of this 'xiaowei', whether good or bad i hope it is really the true me they are thinking about. nowadays when i step out of myself and take a look, i realise i havent been doing the right things ): my mum says: the xiaowei last time always hurries her homework. now leh? so bo chup(language is i edit one, she didnt exactly say that), i really dunno what happen to you. my friends say: why you so quiet? i thought xiaowei very noisy one. my huahui friends say: xiaowei? "ure very pessimistic"/"ure very optimistic". she's also very crazy and cheerful. she's got a weird mood. she's also very FIERCE. lishis say: xiaowei! you must be more firm okay! i say.... xiaowei is quiet and noisy. xiaowei worries about her homework but doesnt hurry over them. xiaowei is pessimistic and optimistic, crazy and wild, cheerful and weird. xiaowei is also fierce, and not firm. so what is xiaowei??? what image have i been giving people all these while? the good and bad contradict so directly, and so much of them seems so true. have i not been genuine? or have i been all the characteristics mentioned? im what my environment shapes me to be. i didnt choose to be like this and i dont know when im switching from here to there. i want to show what i think i am to the pple around me. but apparently many of them already have their unchangeable impressions. my own fault i guess. my responsibility. maybe im versatile and i pick up everything from good to bad naturally ): that will be saddening haha. ah, confused. i bet at some points of life everyone will come to this point, this dilemma. i certainly they end up better than me and are manage to conclude their minds. cos xiaowei is indecisive too ): Thursday, May 04, 2006 POKEMON!! went crazy with keatying and some other ppl in class today over the song after school, and we amused everyone who walked past our class. was finally allowed to have a day off early today! but in the end.. i went to help daoju. haha. nvm! i had fun (: I will be the very best, Like no one ever was. To catch them is my real test, To train them is my cause. I will travel across the land, Searching far and wide. Each Pok��mon, to understand The power that's inside. Pok��mon (Gotta catch 'em all) It's you and me I know it's my destiny Pok��mon Oh... You're my best friend In a world we must defend Pok��mon (Gotta catch 'em all) A heart so true Our courage will pull us through You teach me and I'll teach you Pok��mon Gotta catch 'em all Gotta catch 'em all Pok��mon! yay!!! can sing can sing. i so miss pokemon la. and the primary times. AND MY GAMEBOY! no time to play my one and only gold version. havent managed to find time to go over to kanto since i restarted the game in the dec holidays. feel like restarting again and take chikorita!! but aye, i hate the mission at goldenrod, the one underground. hmm shant waste time talking abt my game -.- current affairs drive me crazy, followed by eng performance task. and now have to do math homework -shoos- Wednesday, May 03, 2006 "the greatest measure of loving God, is to love Him without measure." :s sums up my whole mood of the day. history assignment, chinese test and geog lesson today sure trained my hand muscles. so much writing to do?? and i was totally shocked at the history. the info that i looked for, i used only about 5percent? the rest i just used my brains and personal opinions. how great... haha. my ideology will surely let me get zero. im so gonna flunk chinese!! and with the prayer being taken two times.. -faints- wrote like a lunatic. fund raising preparation was chaotic. we spent like dunno how long deciding to look out for the things to sell. joanne was being super retarded :D oh my professional hugger was acting shy today -_- she was super funny(: and after that spent around 2 hours discussing abt qihang ju. oh yeah we have a ju name! it is TING. KAN. BIE SHUO. shhhhh... wahseh damn cool right (: i think one -waves- yay tomorrow i can go home early. gosh.. once in super long. i feel so.... so... unbelievable (: hope nothing crops up!! oh very coincidental. bxtdl. tmnbwyasta. (: Tuesday, May 02, 2006 my dad is waking later and later. and he is supposed to be my alarm. was supposed to meet jiayun at 6:30 every morning.. today when i woke up it was already 6:20, but i decided to continue to sleep even though i knew it was late; afterall slept at 1:30 last night. finally my dad woke me up at 6:25. rushed like mad hahahha! just felt like sleeping throughout the day. especially when u just get into class. and especially when ur class has alot of scholars who come to sch to doze every morning. how tempting. cca was okay.. did the yes yes yes direction game. den upgrade to mississippi but in the end cannot make it so change to banana. ok im talking crap only xiju ppl can understand (: watched preview of qihang expect peipei's ju. quite excited! my yanyuans were so nervous, wahh calm down calm down. only perform to friends mah scared already, how to perform to hundreds of audience? JIAYOU JIAYOU! reached home super late just felt like sleeping but no of course cannot. slacked at playground cos i realised didnt bring amath textbook home... slacked all the way sleeping dozing and keep getting hit by baby/mummy/lousy. she hit until very shiok la? got work dont want do come hit me and say its my fault she cannot do work ): ohman im so sleepy i cant take it.. shall do hist and go sleep already. Monday, May 01, 2006 insecurity. why is the common question but towards different directions. ohwell. i shant ask la. add more trouble only. |
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